IKIGAI and TORSCHULSSPANIK
I’ve read the other day about a theme that sparks some curiosity – IKIGAI
The first time I had contact with the term was during my endless expeditions through Pinterest. I was looking for inspiration and phrases that lived up to the phase I was at.
And from that day onwards, I have (in a less than enthusiastic way, must be said) trying to understand what the term really entails. IKIGAI is a state of being, as far as my understanding goes. It happens when one is aligned and conscious of our life’s purpose. That thing that gives us joy, a sense for waking up every morning and what can be done entirely for free, for the rest of our lives.
There is a book that discusses this millennial Japanese concept. Who knows, one day I won’t stumble upon this book and maybe reach this thing I have so been looking for…
IKIGAI…our purpose of life. The reason we were brought to this world. I envy all of those that have at least a notion of why they’re here on this earth that reserves us so many surprises and that are, at this precise moment, following that path.
I believe that we all have a reason for which the gift of existence was granted. Wish I could be part of this mass (or better yet, Crème de là crème) that knows and lives this every single day.
Another term that I learnt at the same time and is quite interesting is torschlusspanik or “gate-closing panic” – the anxiety or fear caused by the sensation that life’s opportunities are passing by and reducing as age advances.
My birthday is close (or has already passed by the time of publishing) and it constrains my chest every time I think that I am already on my 34th birthday. I feel that I have not accomplished anything great. Nothing that I really wish I could have accomplished. And I Feel lonelier than I could ever imagine. Heck! I’ve never envisioned myself with 34. Don’t get me wrong! I see myself leaving this world with a bunch of years attached, grey hairs and wrinkled skin. I have never imagined how would it be, though What I wanted my life to be at 27, 30 or 35. And that consumes me. I haven’t found my IKIGAI. I live every instant of my TORSCHULSSPANIK.
Despite all of that, I keep on waking up every single morning (even if it is under hatred), continue taking one day at a time and wondering in paths that I know are long term, for example self-discovery and long-term investments (a conversation for, who knows, another occasion).
<3
Biomoz
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